Good! "Very well then...once you find something you like...I'm sure learning about it will feel like relaxing. You'd be surprised...learning becomes an addiction."
He's a brave young man...if he thinks there's problems and he still wants to work them out. "I wouldn't be scared though love...to talk to Scarlett. She's not a monster. Plus I highly doubt all problems are caused by you. Don't worry yourself...just you watch, you'll say what's bothering you and you'll be all prepared for the worst for nothing." I know this...Scarlett's not one to go off on Greg on just anything. If he's committed a crime even, I think she'd find a way to talk through it rationally. She's not the explosive type and I can't foresee it happening unless someone hurts her badly.
"Yes Scarlett is great! She's one of the nicest people here," which is exactly why I feel so bad and guilty for having feelings for Keanu.
She's always been so nice and sweet, a good friend and I just couldn't let her near me because of Keanu, stupid jealousy. I sigh and look at the plate in front of me. I should eat it all, but I'm so full.
"Then you've got nothing to worry about. Just concentrate on studying and letting people help you...the more you do it, open up, the less badly you'll feel about it." I smile and finish off the rest of my tea and notice him looking at his plate.
"Not hungry dear...or was I yapping too much and it's gotten all cold?"
"I'm full," I smile. "I'm trying to eat a bit more, for energy, but right now I'm full," I giggle.
I save the fruits for later, maybe Drew would like to eat the other one. I know he likes fruits so this could be my little surprise for him.
"By the way...one thing about letting people help me," I smile, I know I can talk to Rachel about this. "Drew will take me shopping soon, he's going to by me some new clothes," I blush, I wonder if that sounded kind of childish.
"Always best to start with the one you love." I smile and wink at him, pushing my teacup to the side. "And shopping's always fun too...be sure to pick out something nice. Not just jeans and t-shirts and things."
"Why's that? I mean, it'll just get wrecked with working and everything."
"No...just save it for something special...a night out. Buying something like that gives you the possibility, something really unique to look forward to. Trust me."
I start to giggle and blush like a teenager. Rachel is right, but I think I want to buy those clothes alone or with a friend. Surprise Drew sometime, a romantic date and a surprise.
"That's a good idea. Drew would like that," I smile. "A special date, we have time together, but not enough, so something special would be perfect."
"Mmm, yes, I know you don't get much time together, but I'll bet the time you do spend is all the more special."
He's a good young man, and lucky to have someone who loves him so. I had that...I shake my head to bring myself back to the present.
I notice Rachel drift away somewhere.
"How do you like it here at Camp? Do you have friends? Do you enjoy being here?" I ask carefully.
The last thing I want is to pry on Rachel. She's been so good to mem I consider her a good friend, so naturally I want to help her feel better if she's sad even a little bit.
"Hmmm? Oh, yes...I do enjoy it here. I have the whole library to myself and I can organize it in whichever standard fashion I wish, people come in to help me...it's very comfortable." I nod my head and consider his other questions. "And before you think I'm just a hermit coming out for a breath of fresh air...yes, I do have friends. Well, I consider them friends so that counts doesn't it?"
I'm being a total ninny again and just thinking about it..I had so many friends in New York, but none of them were my own, they were Jamie's and subsequently latched onto me, society people and all that. I rather liked my friends back in England much better...not at all stuck up and money was never their chief concern.
"I've got you...of course, Billy and Jason come by and help me in the library, Liv, Jake, Viggo...you've met Mr. Mortensen, right?" Now how did he creep in there? Not hard to do though he is quite charming.
Greg clears his throat because it seems I've drifted into Never-Never Land again.
"I'm sorry dear, I keep drifting away...everything starts to look like books and shelves after a while."
"It's alright, everyone has a right to drift away," I smile and quickly squeeze her hand. "I do that quite often," I giggle a bit.
Not so much these days, I did that more before. Now I have so much things to do, people to meet, Drew, a whole new life really. I still think about dad everyday and the rest of my family too. But I'm happy again so not so much drifting anymore.
"Well, let's hope when you do drift...you drift away somewhere pleasant." When I drift it's most often pleasant, but other times...
"Anyway, I should probably head off to my room and get some proper sleep...the library couch is surprisingly uncomfortable after a few nights." I smile and rub my neck slightly.
"And I should find Drew," I smile and start to gather the dishes back to the tray. "It was nice to see you...maybe we get to see each other a bit more from now on."
I'd like that. I just have to visit library more. I haven't read much lately. Maybe I could read out loud to Drew sometimes, in the bed perhaps.
I stand up and walk beside him, patting his shoulder gently. "I'm sure we will love. You take care okay? Drew as well." I give him a small smile before he nods to me in agreeance and I make my way out of the cafeteria and towards my real bed.
"I'll come and see you more Rachel," I shout at her and wave my hand. "I'll bring Drew too!"
We could go and choose a book together and then I can read it to him.